Jan. 11, 20010

What a crappy day! Problems with work, problems with finance, problems in general. The benefit of days like today is that it helps one realize that stuff is just stuff, and money is just money. They both come and go, and for some reason unknown to me....I haven't mastered them yet. I work harder, have more stress, less respect, same problems and responsibilities, but for some reason....I just never get it. Am I not thankful,? No, that couldn't be further from the truth. The LORD has blessed my family and I beyond measure, and I'm not just speaking of material things! No, I'm talking about a personal relationship with GOD the Father, through His Son Jesus the Christ, a wife who loves me and cares about me, a mother that loves me no matter what stupid stunt I pull or poor decision I make, a son that has oh so many of my traits, GOD help him, 2 beautiful grandchildren with another on the way, my health, my friends, my salvation. I am blessed and it makes it even the more sad that I could feel as if I were in a deep, dark pit and no matter how I try, I just keep sinking deeper and deeper. Lord help me for I am becoming overwhelmed emotionally, a role that I am not to familiar with. I need guidance and your presence Abba Father. Jesus help me to get a grip.